I thought I’ve always taken the road less travelled. I guess I did make myself believe that
for quite some time. Now I have no qualms admitting to myself that I only thought I did.
From the start of the journey, I had one foot out the door I guess. I was taking one step
forward, and two steps back each time. 2
Just like that saying goes, I built a wall around me to see if anyone cared enough to try
and break it down. But I’d only been playing a game; because I told myself I didn’t really
want anyone to care, so I threatened to lay an assault charge. A game: stupid and mean
– with two people hurt. Someone cared enough to risk getting hurt, Yet I, like it is also
said, I pushed away the thing I want the most And deep down I didn’t want that game;
I wanted someone to care. For a moment my heart did grow wings - I saw hope – and
then the fear struck and in panic I lashed out. Yet, I want to change. Will anyone believe
me now? Will someone reach out and risk again? 3
The universe is just conspiring to show me what a fool I’ve made of myself. Lately, so
many circumstances have pointed out the fact that having the guts to do things is not
really enough. What I need is to have the guts to do things that matter the most to me.
It’s not enough to fight for something - that you don’t know the reason why you are
fighting for it in the first place. Same as going after something/someone without a
thought as to why you’re going through all the trouble for it in the first place.
Sometimes, going after someone/something without knowing why you should is so
pointless. It’s just wasting time, a luxury that you don’t have. What if you’re going after
something so hard for and then one day you just realize after getting it that it’s not what
you wanted all along. You don’t even know what the fuss was all about in the first place.
And you’ve known deep down what you wanted since the very beginning but you were
too scared to go after it so you went after something else to play it safe because if and
when you failed, it wouldn’t sting half as much. So all along you kidded yourself into
thinking you were taking the road less travelled, taking big risks, diving headfirst,
free-falling into the unknown.
But all along, you played it safe. You took the wrong risks and felt giddy with the fake
highs. And how dumb was that? I want no more of that. This time around I’m going out
bare-naked. Stop wasting away by chasing after the wind.
I’m now going for the gold. I won’t pretend I’m not scared out of my wits. Eyes are going
to roll, tongues are going to wag. On top of that I’d finally be giving myself a second
chance at something I shied away from years ago because I didn’t want to fail at the one
thing I knew I was born to do.
No pressure, right? Ha!
I’ve just recently taken one baby step towards that.
I just hope and pray I won’t take two giant steps backward.
I’m going after that dream and finally taking the road less travelled. 2
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I —
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. 1
Baggage: everyone’s got some
– that’s not the problem:
it’s whether you control and heal it,
or it whether it controls
and destroys you.
You can at any time reinvent yourself
You can learn new things at any time in your life,
For you can undo core irrational beliefs. . .
and drop the 'stinkin’ thinkin’
(change your head – change your life),
and . . . a whole new world opens up to you.
And be free. 4
In the story of your life may you write the very best book you can. Have pages on
understanding, and tales of overcoming hardships, fill your story with romance,
adventure, poetry and laughter. Make each chapter reflect time well spent. 5
* The Road less Travelled - a selection from, "One! The  -Robert Frost
 -The Road Less Travelled ~Written by a woman who has chosen to stay
 ~Anne M.
The Road Less Travelled
Dawn Cove Abbey
Roadside Assistance For Your Journey Through Life
From the eBook: "One! The Journey hOMe", by Klaas Tuinman M.A, © 2007-2020
“If the path before you is clear, you're probably on someone else's.”
― Joseph Campbell