|If you have decided you want sobriety
– control over you life;
and are willing to go to any length to get it,
then you are ready to take certain steps:
“. . . at some of these we balked.
We thought we could find an easier,
But we could not.
Some of us have tried to hold on to our old ideas
and the result was nil,
until we let go absolutely . . .”
Remember that we're dealing with alcohol
cunning, baffling, powerful . . . deadly!
|When things were going right in your life,
you invited me. You said you didn't deserve
these good things, and I was the only one who
would agree with you.
Together we were able to destroy all the things
that were good in your life.
People don't take me seriously.
They take strokes seriously, heart attacks,
even diabetes they take seriously
- fools that they are.
They don't know that without my help,
these things would not be made possible.
I am much hated, like a terrible disease.
And yet, I do not come uninvited.
You choose to have me.
So many have chosen me over reality and peace.
More than you hate me,
I hate all of you who have a 12-step program.
Your program, your meetings,
your higher power:
All weaken me and I can't function
in the manner I am accustomed to.
Now I must lie here quietly.
You don't see me.
But I am growing, bigger than ever.
When you only exist, I may live.
When you live, I only exist.
But I am here.
Until we meet again.
If we meet again, --
I wish you death and suffering.
I Am Your Addiction……
Like a terminal “disease”
|I hate higher power.
I hate anyone who has a program.
To all who come in contact with me,
I wish you death and I wish you suffering.
Allow me to introduce myself:
Cunning, baffling, and powerful.
I have killed millions, and I am pleased.
I love pretending I am your friend and lover.
I have given you comfort, have I not?
Wasn't I there when you were lonely?
When you wanted to die, didn't you call me?
I was there.
I love to make you hurt.
I love to make you cry.
Better yet, I love when I make you so numb
you can neither hurt nor cry.
You can't feel anything at all.
This is true glory.
I will give you instant gratification
and all I ask of you is long term suffering.
I've been there for you always.
|People who really want to heal, will find a way;
those who aren't ready yet, will find an excuse
|Dawn Cove Abbey
Providing "Roadside Assistance" for your Journey through Life
|I Am Your Addiction
|From, "One! The Journey hOMe", the eBook by Klaas Tuinman M.A © 2007-2019
|Questions and comments welcomed.